HAPPY VALENTINES DAY WREATH!

I love love love love the Dollar Tree sometimes!

Today I decided to see if they had any flowers and other supplies to make a festive wreath for Valentines Day. I am feeling as though our house needs a pick me up, and so I purchased some silk flowers, one of those green things you put flowers in, (I don't know what they are called, and I found a circular one) some florist tape, and I came home and put together a wreath for Love Day. I think I might leave it up all month long.

I crocheted a chain to hang it with, and this is the finished result.

 

Taking these pictures made me realize how dirty our front door is, and that I should probably spend a little more time noticing and fixing things like that. 

So, dirty door aside, that is my Love Wreath! 

Have you done any crafts for Love Month?

With Love, 

Suz

A few thoughts...

After a seemingly long week, one filled with bouts of depression, sprained ankles, slips in the mud, anxiety attacks, guilt, and other glorious things, I am going to take a minute to relax and reflect.

I would like to make a thankful list.

1. I am thankful for my sweet husband and my beautiful, sweet son.
2. I am thankful for wonderful friends and extended family who support me relentlessly.
3. I am thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ
4. I am thankful that I live in this country.
5. I am thankful that I am relatively healthy, (the relatively part is my own fault)
6. I am thankful for my talents
7. I am thankful for people who read my blog, because it makes me feel that much more cared about!
8. I am thankful for my husband's job, and the money he is able to earn for our family.
9. I am thankful for education.
10. I am thankful for dreams.

I would like to make a list of things that make me smile and/or happy.

1. New nail polish
2. Good movies
3. Unexpected phone calls from friends.
4. Witnessing kindness.
5. Creating something.
6. Silly inside jokes, (as long as I'm on the inside)
7. Pajamas
8. Warm weather
9. Lip gloss
10. pedicures
11. Baby animals.
12. Homemade gluten-free oreo cookies
13. New socks
14. Scarves
15. Children laughing

I realize that my thankful list is smaller than my happy list, but maybe I should just combine them. They are really the same list.

I am so grateful that my son is healthy and happy. I can't explain the desperation I felt when he was so sick last year. I am glad we were able to figure it out, with the help of my Heavenly Father.

I have to say, that it breaks my heart to watch him crawl around to move right now. He's been walking for so long, it is strange to see him crawling again, and I just want to cry when I see him do it because I feel so bad that he is hurting and I can do nothing for him.

This post is really random, but my heart is just so full of gratitude and I needed to write it down.

With Love,
Suz

Lori Loo

 

Is this girl hot, or what? This is my friend Lori Loo. She is not only gorgeous, she is kind, generous, full of life, and HILARIOUS! 

I first met Lori at Gottschalks in Chico, CA. I was applying for a job at the Lancome counter, and she worked at Estee Lauder. I walked up to her counter while waiting for my interview and she looked bored as hell. 

When I got the job, Lori and I quickly became shift buddies, and I would be seriously bummed if I came in to work and she wasn't there. Shifts were so lame when I didn't have Lori to make silly faces at me, or to spray Youth Dew on me. Gag. I think I got her back once by spraying Magi Noir in to a fan and blowing it in her direction. Anyone reading this who doesn't know what I am talking about, next time you go to a department store, go smell those two perfumes and you will understand how funny this is.

Then there was that drunk guy during the brown out. "YOU GIRLS ARE BEAUTIFUL! YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND ESPECIALLY YOU! I WANT TO TAKE ALL YOU GIRLS HOME! GLLLLLAAAAAAAAHHH" 

There was the girl who came in every once in a while and breathed through her mouth and just kind of stared and walked around the counter but never really talked, but giggled to herself and made me feel especially nervous. 

There were the endless nights of Napoleon Dynamite quotes, and laughing until we almost peed, though I think I actually did pee once or twice. 

Lori has been there through a lot of hard times for me. She has always been supportive and never failed to amaze me. Her friendship is so precious to me. She sat and listened as I cried and cried because I couldn't get pregnant, and hugged me without a word when my grandfather died. She knew I couldn't talk about it, she knew I just needed a hug. 

Every once in a while, you meet someone truly truly special- someone you know that you have known in another life.

Sometimes we go a few months without talking, and that breaks my heart, but then, when we do get the chance to talk, it's as if no time has passed at all. We laugh, and sometimes we cry, but we are there for each other. 

I am so happy that I am a part of her life, and that she is a part of mine. I miss her like crazy, and if we do get to move back to Chico next year, I will be so happy that I will get to not only talk to her, I will get to see her beautiful, sunshiney face whenever I can! 

Lori, I love you mucho, and you are truly one of my best friends. I know I can count on you for anything, and that means the world to me. You are an angel. 

 

Doesn't she look amazing?! I just got this picture in my email today. I am so happy for her. She is going to be a mommy, and I just want to kiss her little baby bump! 

Thank you for letting me be a part of this time in your life, my beautiful friend.

Love you long time, 

Suz

Little Foot

We bought an ACE bandage today. They even had tiny sized ones. So, here are some sad pictures of Daddy wrapping Ez's little foot.

I know the pictures aren't the best, but I just wanted you to see his little foot all wrapped up.

He's doing a lot better, but he's still in pain when he tries to walk. Poor little one.

With Love,
Suz

Twisted Ankle

Yesterday, I took Ez to a park, and we were having lots of fun running around, and I decided to go down the twirly slide with Ez. All was well until his right foot got caught between my leg and the slide, and as we were going down, his ankle twisted and he screamed in pain.

It isn't swollen, bruised or bothering him constantly, but he can't put weight on it without screaming and crying. I'm not entirely sure what to do. Would it be swollen if it were broken? Could it be sprained, or just bruised? It has turned my rambunctious, energetic little one, in to a snuggly, movie watcher.

I think I'm going to call the doctor's office and see what he thinks I should do. I feel so bad. If I had just let him go down by himself, this wouldn't have happened. BAH!

Anyway, I'll keep you posted.

With Love,
Suz

Today, (SIGH) Today.

Today started out kind of strange. I felt a lingering sense of doom and gloom. I tried to ignore it as much as possible, but it remained. No matter how sweet my husband was, no matter how funny and cute my son was, I remained in a state of perpetual sadness and encroaching anxiety.

I hate that I get this way every once in a while, and I especially hate it when there is no apparent reason behind it. However, I should count my blessings that there ISN'T something behind it, shouldn't I?

Even as I sit here, typing my feelings in a somewhat coherent jumble, my mind is shrouded in a dark cloud. I am sad. I am homesick. I miss my friends, and my family. I feel cut off from everything and everyone. Even though I know I have good friends here, who I'm sure I could call up and say, "Hey, I need to be cheered up," I am missing the friends I haven't seen in years, and the place I used to call home.

Is it still home if your family has left?

I feel so nervous and so anxious to know what is going to happen after this year, that I'm having trouble enjoying the here and now. I don't want to feel unhappy. I don't want to be moody and brooding. I want to be happy, energetic, optimistic and all around joyful. I want to laugh until it hurts and then laugh some more. I want to feel so much joy that it feels like sunshine in my bones.

I just want to feel like I can get through a day without wanting to cry. I'm not entirely sure how to do that. I'm not entirely sure if it's possible.

Not to worry. I am sure this feeling will pass in a day or two. I just wish these days never came around.

With Love,
Suz

Feeling Inspired To Make The World More Beautiful

Honestly, I'm so sad I only just recently found COLOR ME KATIE in the last few days. She is so fun, and energetic! Here are some of my favorite photos from her site. Honestly, she is so creative and exciting, it makes me want to try new things!

 

I just love all these pictures. She is so fun. I think everyone should start her day with a little dose of COLOR ME KATIE! 

With Love, 

Suz